Good Gal, great decision. I smoked 20+ a day for 15 years and was a happy smoker. Came home from work one nightshift and OH (non-smoker, who'd NEVER moaned about my smoking after 15 years married!) had written on my fag packet "don't smoke, smoking kills, I don't want to lose you".
I booked an appt wiv smoking cessation nurse next day.Had to wait 2 weeks for the appointment and IT WAS THE WORST 2 WEEKS OF MY LIFE. I was a bitch, a wreck and not looking forward to it.
However, when it came to it, I was surprised how well I did. I sucked the little tabs only when I was desperate for a fag and within 2 weeks was on just 4 tabs a day.
If you get the unflavoured ones, you can even keep keep one in the side of your cheek while you enjoy a glass or several of wine.
I quit in 4 weeks and suprised myself. The patches give you a constant dose of nicotine wether you need it or not and i'm glad i avoided them. I've not smoked for 5 years
You can and will do it. Its effing hard to make the decision, but once you decide its time, you'll do just fine
Be strong and determined