What more can I say to you other than what Ive already said on the phone.
There is only you two who can make this decision, and Neil is behind you one hundred percent whatever you decide.
You can make the decision, and believe me its not an easy one, as you are where we were a month or so ago.
Take your time to think over it, and way up all the pros and cons. Talk openly and freely with each other, and whatever your decision be happy with it.
You say Sarah in your heart of hearts you cant go - well if this is really really true, dont look back and think positive thoughts for the future, wherever that may be.
You know I want you to go to Australia (not brisbane mind you) but that cant be your only reason for going.
Hope your decision is made soon, so at least you can rest either way. You need to call me, anytime.xxx