We fly to tomorrow to our new life in Adelaide. The thing is I am leaving 3 older children and 5 grandchildren behind. My 4 younger children are coming with us. I have cried all day. Picking the children up from there last day at school was bad enough. Some of my son friends (8 year olds) were heart broken and begging me to let him stay which was heartbreaking. Then tonight saying bye to my two daughters and their children, someone may has well just ripped out my heart out. Why am I doing this I am sat here asking myself. My son didn't come to say goodbye as he said he could not handle it. So I'm sat here sobbing. I know it's going to be hard I just underestimated how hard it was going to be saying goodbye.