Sorry in advance for the long message but any help would be greatly appreciated
i moved from bristol to adelaide when i was 10, and me nor my brother particularly wanted to go but we had no choice. i have constantly been homesick, despite having a very nice life here. I have lived here 6 years now and i have just come back from my first trip back to the UK since moving. I loved being in bristol and I cried for hours at the airport because i didn't want to leave; it was so nice to be home and be with my grandparents. it was also nice to see two close friends, who are two brothers, that I have known since i was 4, so i am very close with them. they are the only friends from my childhood in england that i am still in touch with so they are very very special to me. It was very difficult to leave these boys when i came back to australia as i have been close with them for almost my entire life.
My instinct is to book my next holiday to england this very minute, and to go back as often as i can in future. I'm even considering going to university in bristol. however, the only thing stopping me from going back to the UK is the two brothers i am very close with. as they were originally born in australia they are planning on coming to australia to visit at some point in the near future, and the older one is considering coming to university here. the problem is, is that i don't want to book a trip to england in case they book a trip to australia at the same time as i don't want to miss an opportunity to see them. also i don't want to be in the UK if the older brother comes to university here, as i want to stay near him to be close to him. obviously i don't want my life to revolve around other people, but i want to spend as much time as possible with these boys.
so my questions are:
*should i just book my next trip back to the UK anyway? because while these boys are desperate to come to australia they haven't decided when they are actually coming and i am desperate to be back in the UK, it would be a shame to miss them but i can't wait around for ever for them to decide what they are doing
*should i consider going to university in bristol? whilst i love being back in bristol, going on holiday somewhere and actually moving back and living there are two very different things. I also don't want to leave australia if the older brother comes to university in australia as i want to stay close to him.
apologies for the long message, but i could really use some advice as i am miserable, I'm really missing england and these two friends. Writing it down i realise how ridiculous this all sounds, but its really hurting me and i'll take any advice i can get, thanks