Just needed to write something down. I have just had "one of those" messages from the UK that makes me want to go straight to the airport and get on a flight home. My oldest and bestest mate phoned me a couple of weeks ago and told me she was pregnant. Bear in mind that this lass is the most natural parent I have ever met who so richly deserves to have a child. She and her hubby have been trying for a while and she is now 41 years old, and saw this as her last chance. I have received a message today that she has lost the baby and is, understandably, in pieces. All I want to do is wrap her in a big hug until it's all ok again. All i can actually do is call her and try to offer some kind of support over the phone. I feel heart broken. I thought that this wouldn't happen for a long time to me, as I have no close family in the UK, and my mates are my family.
I hadn't realised how hard this would be, and just how remote and far from the UK you actually feel here. What a crappy thing to happen, just before Christmas.
Thanks for listening, I just needed to get it out of my system to help stop me sitting here at my desk at work sobbing.