Thanks everyone. Just reading your responses has given me reassurance. After a very up and down week, I am trying to take each step individually and am now focused on the reccie (really hoping it will put me at ease) and am actually glad we're going for a peek instead of landing in the unknown! Hopefully we'll get a feel for an area and I can narrow down my research.
Pete - you're so right, Richard & Joanne and Ali - we've still gotta go for it, Ken - time is a healer, Judi - a few beers in any sentence cheers me up instantly! Lisa - yeah I'm in mourning already!! Susanmary38 - chin up to you too and finally ........good luck to you Jen for the 31st and beyond.
Thank you guys, Jac x